Monday, July 21, 2008

What Now! (and how!)

There are several questions continually rambling through my head at all times ( yes, I guess you could say; I hear voices!) They are mostly my own. What am I going to do? Did I do/say the wrong thing? What am I gonna be when I grow up? One of the things I know for sure is... I'm just not SURE. I've been caught in this cycle of indecision for about twenty years. God save the people near and dear to me because if there is a right or a wrong way, I always seem to choose the incorrect path! It's been a very frustrating pattern, and I've grown tired of it! I must find a way out of this rut and figure out what would make me feel worthy of space on this Earth! Post haste!


Bob said...

I am a firm believer that things always work themselves out just as they were meant to be. I don't mean that things are predestined, but that when we are ready for things, they will come to us - whether it's an entirely conscious desire or not.

In my own life this has recently been shown by the "arrival" of love for the first time in over a decade. I wasn't looking for it, and had even come to the conclusion that I would never again experience it - and yet, arrive it did, sparked by a seemingly random online encounter, and now I can't imagine life without it.

So, whatever it is that you - deep down inside - are meant to be doing will manifest itself when the time is right. You just need to be open to seeing it, and living in the here and now in the meantime.

(btw, due to circumstances, my love and I aren't yet able to be totally public with things, so I'd appreciate it if you didn't bring up the subject on my blog... if your curiosity is overwhelming, you can email me and I'll be glad to talk about it.)

Bob said...

Wow, I'm wordy this morning, aren't I?

Sorry 'bout that! :)

kkryno said...

Thanks, Bob. I'm so happy for you both! Your wordiness is very much appreciated, as is yoursharing something so close to your heart. Your secret is safe with me! Love, Vikki

Doug & Amanda said...

Mom, to be honest, I am sure no one really has any clue what they are doing. Oh, and p.s. it's not what you do that makes you "worthy of space on this earth". It's who you are. And I love you for who are.

The Cunning Runt said...

Bob's words are wise (Gawd I love that guy!) Patience and presence will show you the way.

I've been adrift most of my life, prompting people who have their acts together to roll their eyes and keep their distance. But as I age, I seem to be becoming more spiritual and accepting of who I am.

Perhaps that will allow me to drift closer to where I want to be.

Hang in there, Fella Searcher. Our destinies await!

Bob said...

One OT deserves another! ;)

My neighbor seems fine... I posted about it here. Thanks for asking, and therefore nudging me to post the update.

Hope you're enjoying the Midnight Sun!!