No more bon-bons!

At the end of this month we will haved lived in Alaska for two years. For me, the time has been very lonely and has mostly passed with an aching slowness. The hardest part has been being separated from loved ones and friends. I never realised how hard it is to maintain relationships when the miles between are vast. Three time-zones away make it difficult to call at convienent times for those voices I long to hear over the wires. I haven't held a job since 2006, which on the surface might seem like a good thing to some, but I don't do well without the structure that a regular schedule brings. I feel somewhat useless and like I'm not contributing. Now after all this "semi-retirement", I'm going to look for employment. Finding a job in my current state of ebbing self-confidence is somewhat unnerving. I know biting the bullet and just getting on with it is the way to go. Once a job is secured I'll be fine and can make new aquaintences. All will be well, right? Wish me luck!