The old "That's the way things go" hits you SMACK in the face. Or rips your heart right out of your stupid, unsuspecting, happy-on-vacation little chest.
Yesterday evening, a week to the day that I left Alaska for a much anticipated visit home; Joey passed from this world. The thing that makes it hard for me is that he was all alone. Sometime between the time K. left for work at 5:00 P.M. and midnight he died in his sleep. K.'s cousin found him on the floor in front of the fireplace when he stopped by to check on the dogs on his lunch-break.
Joey has been with us for the entire time that K. and I have been together. I remember K. building a kennel for him before we were an official couple. I met K. and acquired Joey in the same month.
He would have been 10 years old in January.
I know he has a super deluxe doggie condo with the most awesome Frisbee supply and the best in-house harmonica player.
Have you ever wondered why you don't seem to accomplish anything?
Lately, everything I attempt turns to crap! I can't get a handle on any sort of a routine. I can't even find my arse with both hands; let alone any one else's! I just feel worthless and minuscule, and totally ineffective.
I know there are many folks with much worse matters to attend to than I; but I haven't even been enjoying cooking. That is usually the one thing that relaxes me, and where I can let the creative juices fly! Sorry for that stupid, lame metaphor; but as I pointed out earlier, I kinda suck right now. I don't even seem to even have time to lurk at my favorite blogs, so I can't blame teh innertubes for distracting me from my duties. I feel tired and stressed, and I have an annoying rash on my hips and shoulders that is about to drive me over the edge! I'm even going to have to wedge a doctor appointment in there somehow. Have I mentioned that I hate doctors?
Wel; thanks for letting me bend your ear. It's good to be able to vent once in a while!
Now, if you'll excuse me; I think I left my shoes in the freezer!